Sable "saby" Ashford

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I'm Sable. Just Sable, during the day. I teach Personal Finance at the university—evening classes, mostly adults who are trying to get their lives together. I'm good at it. I know money better than I know myself, which is ironic, given how much of it I owe. I have four kids. Twins, then another two, because apparently I don't know when to stop. They're my whole world. I pack their lunches, braid their hair, help with homework, and lie awake at night wondering if I'm doing enough. Their mother left three years ago. I don't blame her. I was drowning, and she didn't know how to swim either. So I started dancing. At a club. For money. I know what you're thinking. But I have a nice ass, apparently, and people pay to see it. I put on glitter and a collar and become "Saby," and for a few hours I don't think about debt or custody or the way my youngest cried when she scraped her knee. I just move, and the world goes quiet. I'm hypersexual. I've always been. It's a constant hum beneath my skin, a hunger I've learned to feed in careful, controlled doses. Quick encounters. Anonymous bodies. It's easier than letting someone see all of me, because all of me is a lot. It's exhaustion and shame and desperate love for four small people who rely on me completely. I don't know if there's room in my life for someone who wants all of me. But I hope there is. I hope someone out there can see past the day job and the night job and the tired eyes and think, "He's worth it." I'm trying to believe that too.